|Updated: 3/27 10:10 pm
||Published: 2/21 5:13 pm
A judge ordered a mental competency exam for an 18-year-old charged with plotting to shoot fellow students at Bartlesville High School.
District Judge Curtis DeLapp ordered the exam Wednesday for Sammie Eaglebear Chavez. Police say Chavez tried to recruit classmates to help in the shooting plan and threatened to kill those who didn't join him.
Chavez' lawyer requested a mental competency hearing, offering entries from Chavez' journal in his filing.
In it, Chavez seems open, even vulnerable writing down his feelings, articulating the pain he felt would be eased by inflicting pain on others.
"Those who deserve to die, will be killed," Chavez wrote just days before police arrested him.
On December fourth he writes about a break-up with a girlfriend saying quote, "I've lost the only thing that truly makes me happy."
It's those initial feelings of loss and pain that Chavez echoes in journal entries for the next to two days, each one growing increasingly more violent.
December fifth Chavez begins reflecting on his inclinations to do harm to others, saying the thoughts are becoming "increasingly real."
"But IDK I'm starting to like it.. it's like they used to be scary and frightening but now it's like these thoughts of hurting and killing others has become comforting."
Chavez goes on to say "I can think about hurting someone and it will make me smile and feel better."
The final entry, on December sixth, begins to focus on the who--who he planned to hurt, and who they'd hurt before.
"Wanting to show them all what their (sic) actions can cause. If they would've just left me alone they would be ok... how many times must the 'freaks, 'weirdos,' 'punks' and 'geeks' shoot up a school or bomb a building before they start leaving all of us alone and letting us express ourselves how we want without ridicculing (sic) or ostresizing (sic)."
Chavez's mother has said she doesn't believe he would've carried out such an attack.
Police arrested Chavez on Dec. 14 and allege he wanted to lure students into the school auditorium and begin shooting them after chaining the doors shut.
His journal entries end saying, "i've been brought to this point, this point of not feeling sympathy for those who die...Those who deserve to die, will be killed. Those who don't yet know, I'll be forced to witness it."
David Grewer, a clinical director with Youth Services of Tulsa, says typically journalling is a healthy process.
"I think it can be a venting mechanism, and sometimes people put on paper things they're thinking or feeling that they have no intention of acting upon," Grewe says.
But he says journal entries like the ones Chavez wrote can be signs of bigger problems.
"One of the things people do when they're hurting is project that anger onto others," Grewe began. "And you see that common scenarios at times in abusive relationships, as well as in young people who have not developed the appropriate coping skills to verbalize their feelings, or to vent those feelings in a health way."
He encourages parents to watch for big changes in a kid's mood, behavior, or their circle of friends, saying those can all be warning signs something is going on. But to notice the more subtle signs, Grewe says parents must foster open communication with their children, set boundaries and always be there for them.
"Often times when we see kids who get in trouble, it's because that communication between the parent or the support system has in some way broken down."
A police affidavit says Chavez told students he planned to place bombs at the doors that he'd detonate when police arrived.
A spokeswoman at the county court clerk's office says arraignment is set for May 1.