and I truly did try to keep an open mind till the labels started reading "can cause sudden death for no apperant reason"retareded is slow not stupid , I'd rather be "crazy" than dead

not to mention the label they give me changing to match whatever new drug they come out with

yea, closed rooms make me nervous,can't listen to the converstaion and try to figure out just one more way out of the room just in case of the if's, I go when I can ,but being straped down and hooked up to the juice"electroshock treatment" for smiling or laughing or crying to much, kinda ruins the whole trust issue, other ppl are allowed emotions , why am I not allowed any

Have you considered therapy?

care be full out there,thought I'd share...somebody got saved today,it wont be on the news.another got healed today,it aint like it's anything new.somebody reached out today to stand on faith alone.His people wore a crown today,they'll give them back when they get home.one is lost today ,another will be found.a child will be born today, an old weay soul will be laid in the ground,someone will find new strength today to be a young ,bold lions roar.someone will reach one soul today ,and it will reach a hundred more.one day we'll stand before, our Lord and king..one day.., one day will be a thousand years for us to praise and sing.don't know if anybody feels the way I do,I just can't wait to get to heaven,though I'll feel I failed if I don't see every single last one of you,...........merry christmas...an man I just wana say "hey I shovel sidewalks " but paranoia will not let me allow some of you to know where I live ....lol srry,.....see theres another thing paranoia; see they say paranoid, I say 5 X legitimizes an almost psychotic amount of precaution,psychotic means not in touch with reality,schizophrenic means hearing, seeing or believing things someone else has determend does not exsist, oh please forgive me if I have been to rude, mean or nasty,it was not my intention I just want you to see things the way I do,I red some of what I wrote and was not happy with some of the things I said, I appologize