|Updated: 12/21/2012 9:16 pm
||Published: 12/21/2012 6:13 pm
Friday marked the one-year anniversary of the murder of a toddler in Muskogee.
Elbert Lee Meeks, 22, is charged with shooting and killing two-year-old Ja'cion Logan. Investigators say Meeks was trying to force his way into the home when he started shooting, hitting little Ja'cion in the head.
Ja'cion's family gathered at his grave site Friday to honor his memory. For them, it feels like the murder was just yesterday, not a year ago.
"It's been pretty hard," Vickie Ragsdale, Ja'cion's grandmother said. "We've all been grieving in our own different ways."
For Ragsdale, that means talking to other families who have lost loved ones to murder and visiting Ja'cion's grave as often as possible.
"Halloween I came out and put some Halloween things on [his gravestone]," Ragsdale said. "And his birthday we did some things. So, that's how we're keeping his memory alive be decorating his grave."
For Ja'cion's mother, Charlisha, coping with his death has been much more difficult.
"I try to keep my mind occupied off of it," she said. "Because if I don't, I'll just sit around and be depressed and sad."
"I know he didn't want to see his mother like that. It's hard. It's really hard."
Last week when 20 children were gunned down in Newtown, Connecticut, painful memories flooded back.
"We grieved along with them, because we knew exactly what they were going through," Ragsdale said.
"I couldn't watch it," Charlisha said. "It was hard. It was very hard."
"I know what they're going through. Like I said, it's hard, but it will get easier."
Much easier, she hopes, after Elbert Meeks' trial.
"I just want justice," she said. "I just want [him] to know that [he] can't go out doing things like that."
But until the trial, she relies on her family and her faith to deal with the pain.
"He's ok," she said. "God got him. He's ok."
"God don't make mistakes (sic). He don't make mistakes."
"He was a very smart little boy," Ragsdale said. "He was well loved and he is well missed."
While Ragsdale, Logan and the rest of Ja'cion's family know that nothing is ever going to bring him back, they still hope Meeks is convicted and receives the death penalty.
Elbert Meeks is charged with first degree murder and assault and battery with a deadly weapon. His trial is scheduled to start January 18.